i am such a slacker.
slacking all day long at home.
such a hypocrite-

my grades? if it wasnt for God, i d be singing
with joey now-

Only U.
hahahas oh
she makes me laugh like crazy! ^^

procrastinator vioLynnne
wants to be Nikola Tesla Grade A
MUGGER.

brilliant amazingly smart, supernatant
quick and intelligent mugger, ON FIRE VIOL!!

i like the sound of that already ^^

oh gosh. sweet weekends-
i embrace thee.
oh wells, considering its already
saturday though...guess that means i ve
got less than 24 hours before i gear up for
another roaring week ahead! yippee.

hahahahs no really i do love my life-
blustering tempest, hurricanes and all ^^
OH GOD i MUST have faith in You- and i know
i mustn let You down, just like You never give
up on me and hopelessly lackadaisical ways!

its a vicious cycle.
why do people think that turn away from God when
they face difficulties? ( its a question i struggle to
answer myself )

1. He knows my difficulties-
and He s not doing anything. Its His fault.
2. God is angry at me.
3. Nobody cares about me, not even God.
4. =insert your reason of choice here=

i dont consider myself worthy to know all about this
issue- but i do know and think that ITS NOT TRUE.

1. He s using it to change and develop us for the better!
did you really expect life to be a pretty bed of bouganvillea?
wake up and smell the atmosphere of
ozone layer depletion man-
what doesnt kill you makes you stronger;
and thats what God wants us to be. STRONG.

2. (ooh this one) God is forgiving.
He does get angry if you continue disobeying Him-
but He is a good and merciful God who loves us
and forgives again and again when we are truly sorry.

3. even if nobody cares, God Cares.
even if you were only an electron compared
to the cosmic galaxies of this universe, He made you-
and loves you. ^^
this ones a huge one, cuz all too often people like to
place their hopes and expectations on something
that doesnt last, or isnt reliable.

money? fame? academics? popularity?
sure its a good thing - and its good to use these
things to glorify God's name; but once its gone;
you re gone.
None of it will last- its true.
but God does, and His word is forever!

i guess this all sounds a little bit strong, but i do get
frustrated (at myself especially) when all i can see
is the impending doom of tutorials and ct tests
and to do this and that and failing my expectations-

when God is actually so much bigger than all of that.
i love my God. =)

and as i can talk big,
Lord i pray that i think big
and be BIG, so much more than my little worries./ ^^

lots of things made me smile today. =)
there are way too many to blog-
Thank You Lord for always making me
so gosh darn happy! ^^

letsee.
how else do u explain my chinese teacher
giving me $150 out of her own pocket for my
overdue Eagles award?

or that i had such a great time mugging with
jasmine on the bus? (and for blessing me with
her really good bio notes too! ^^ )

or that i could treasure friendships more?
(this ones for you babes XD )
and also for my wonderful friends that i cant
see regularly, but still call my name and wave
whenever i see them ^^)
Jasmine, Luke, Quan hui, Jestina, Zi hui, Hui min
Huang ke, on and KK! hahas! funny man XD
and the list goes on and on-
and knowing new friends too! (Monica- look forward
to more vball with ya! >< hahahas)

or last minute mugging with GuangYuan-
(hahahas i bet all tt influence
from wee liat is finally getting to his brain-
cuz hes finally more outspoken! =D )

and from having such a great time watching
todays performance- Live, Love and Learn!
i actually really had goosebumps at one point!

i shall never look at teachers the same way again.

gave tuition to three girls today-
with extreme differences.
cuz the tuition is free (cip), and the room is
packed with eager kids who wanna play
and the tutors are absolutely too sweet to
yell when the kids go out of control-
like jumping out of their chairs to play ball
in the midst of sally has 127 marbles
and maggie has 37 more-
how much do they have altogether?

think zoological gardens?
but with the cages wide open, and the zoo
keepers particulary at the mercy of
various primates. thats how scary.

thats what it felt like at first.
then i got to know sudah and ariel-
kids who really are fantastic, and very
intelligent (and persuasive)-
how many ways can you say teacher;
5 more minutes?

then i got to tutor linda, 10, who s really
cute and keen in math (i have got to
learn from that)
and talked to nurul, who folded paper boats
and poured drinks for all the tutors ^^
and laughed when iphrahim tried 'magic'
where legs were mysteriously kicked under
the table, also infamous for his hyena
bursts of laughter
and sharul, who prides himself on long
division-

it was amazing how the same children who
could make you burst blood vessels be so
fun to be around with at the same time

at one point, i also wondered if this was
what Jesus must have felt like spreading the
gospel.

it was like watching a young child so full of
potential, and knowing that so many dreams and
amazing things could happen if only she d
open her eyes and take her studies seriously.

knowing tt if only she d see the things
that d matter and work hard for it.

i m pretty sure He would give
up so much just for the little girl to realise that.

whine.whine.
whinewhinewhines.

and that basically how i ve been feeling
for the past few days.

appointments to consider
relationships to maintain
distractions to ignore
details to remember
hours on computer and handphone
pw (ohh PW)
unfinished homework
coming home soo late=
late night work
bad hair (days)
spiritual drainage
not understanding macclaurins
(feel like kicking myself if tt ll help
stop me from zoning out so much)
not understanding ALOT
sleeping later and later
and all the while
not controlling my food intake.

and yet i still am such a lucky brat for
the things that i do have- and obviously
do not treasure!

makes me feel like singing:

always look on the bright side of life~
lala
lala
lalalalalala! hahahas XD

and i do know that my Lord is good and
just and will never give or tempt me with
more than i can bear. ^^

IF GOD BE FOR ME, WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SISTER JOYCIE!! ^^

tooked an one hours to bake this little beauty for her birthday present-

but good Lord it was DELICIOUS =D

im not biased ^^

know this is a little late but

JESSICA TAN SHI HAN HAS ROCKED IN
THE HEART OF GOD CHURCH!!

hahahahahahs

THANK YOU LORD FOR LETTING JESS
STEP INTO CHURCH AFTER THREE SOLID
MONTHS!! i pray that we ll both grow strong
in your word and impact others through Christ!!

(oh MAYY~) xD hahahahs

GOD IS INCREDIBLE and i believe He will do
many great works in the lives of others,
just like
He has changed MINE! =D

Academic Excellence: to train the most potent
and formidable weapon God has given Man-
and to glorify God s name through our studies!!

JEHOVAH JIREH!! XD

CREDITS TO GOD

H2 Mathematics- D
H2 Chemistry-E
H2 Biology-C
H1 Economics-C
GP- C

thank you Lord for guiding me throughout this
mid-year examinations
know i m fortunate to have passed every single
subject so far,
but m still disappointed at the dismal state of grades-
(no way- my best is a C??)
but am glad i ve improved lots from CT tests ^^

know its not much Lord
no As, not even a B-
but i believe that my life and future
are in your hands
and i wanna do you proud =D

all of us have the potential to be top scorers.
but not all of us are.

I WANT AN A FOR MY AMAZING GRACE

I AM SO HAPPPIIEE-
its left me flummoxed really
the travesty of not dedicating this mere ghetto
of many a random pent up emo-trash
into praising and glorifying my God.

Not only has he totally healed this
week-old sprain in my left ankle after a really
earnest prayer this morning-
[Benny Hinn, i believe! =D]

and he somehow arranged things so i could
spent time just crapping and
hanging out with ange today hahahahs
[missed going out with you girl ^^]

but he also brought NICHOLAS TAM
to HoGc today!! prayed about twenty
please-dont-let-this-happen-Lords and they
NEVER DID 0.o bwahahahas

prayer works wonders. thats all i have to say. ^^

had a great time talking with him, and
even more surprising, Gods presence felt so
natural during worship!!
and i had lots of fun with Faith and him,
while hearning God s word abt VISION!!

my vision is my future- i liked that! =)

i m gonna have a great future!
hahahas
i love my God for being God!^^

something benjamin said today
has now stuck firmly in my head
like a bad song.

'its just whether i want it or not.'

a little verse of the day for you guys
to contemplate then =)
also made me wonder if i ve been
stressing out over many many things-
sometimes wonder if i ve been doing
things wrong for too long.

my studies, exam results, daily revision,
time management, my priorities,
emotions, quiet time and extracurricular
activities, and self-discipline.

trying to manage this alone as much as possible,
as i have learnt from experience,
is just not gonna work out.
yes, its only humane to be tired and
frustrated, but why should i be?

i ve got GOD.

and Hes the best solution to any problem ^^

I can do All things through Christ who
Strengthens Me.
thank you Lord for so many things-including
gladys and rachel's blog, reminding me of Your
grace and presence always =D

things feel kinda crazy now.

everyones talking about each others
mid-year results- and theres an element
of desperation in our haunted eyes
that yes, that A for chemistry suddenly
seems so far farrr awayyy

hahahahs and
yet at the same time we are able to enjoy
ourselves immensely with our classmates,
school friends and today particularly, cca mates-

which was surreal.

sat in an open truck for the first time-
it was really cool, plus the hair whipping effect ^^
then sat in plush seats talking and watching
the great drum festival performance! hahahas and

two hours of basketball just lost me my
stubborn holiday fat! [ahahahahs HAPPY] XD
new perspective: the way guys seem to move
(somehow gracefully) and seamlessly when
they play basketball?

its not an illusion. 0.o
thankfully, girls still have an advantage in brains
and maturity, n'est ce pas? =D

now doing the odious task for typing out pw minutes
and finish math file collating and dna tutorials
(untouched and un-understandable) by tomorrow

Thankfully, my problems cant grow bigger,
BUT I CAN =D

i had a walk down memory lane today.

it was beautiful.